You are trying to regain a hold on something which may not have been a reality , there is only one reality for you and that is the here and now . have faith in your own strength of character and your own ability to determine not only the future road to take but with whom you need to travel it with.
When we free ourselves of desire ,we will know serenity and freedom.
t think that u have to forgit him , seems to me that hes a very good person , I
don`t think that u will find any good man like him . u said that he helped u
when u faced problems so he is already a good man , This`s my point of view but of
course , resolution up to you in the end .